Who and What I Was

Where did my peace of mind go?
Uncertainty has finally won the battle
Peace of mind cannot be found
Hidden in the dark pit of questions

What do I do?
How should I feel?
Who can I talk to?
Who really understands?

Who understands what it feels like
To have your own body
Attacking itself from the inside out?
Who understands what that feels like?

Who understands what it feels like
To have to re-evaluate a self image
That was strong and sure?
Who understands what that feels like?

So much is going on around me
Thoughts whirl through my head
To the point of physical exhaustion
But I go with it and do what I have to do

What I have to do to convince
Not only others, but myself
That I'm going to be
Who and what I was again real soon